I am delighted to discover that I have gained some gold nuggets through this time of trial.
Gold nugget: I have started to be authentic and open about my pain with my broader group of friends.
Gold nugget: Many of my friends have breathed a sigh of relief at my openness rather than feeling awkward and running from me (as I had half expected)
Gold nugget: I realized that many of my friends have been wanting to reach out to me but didn’t know how. In the past I only shared honestly about Matt is people asked directly for fear of inflicting people with sharing they did not want. My holding back meant others held back – we are now finding each other. And it’s good.
Gold nugget: I learnt that if I am putting on a brave face it denies people the opportunity to encourage, love and comfort me. I am learning to recognize my need and to express that need. I have been blown away by people’s genuine care.
With all these gold nuggets I feel RICH and BLESSED.
And ironically, it took a time of deep pain and grieving to discover these gifts.